27 September 2011

Still here...

Yep, we're still here.  All of us.  Including my darling mumsey.

She is on a gently sloping plateau these days.  Getting a little worse but not a lot worse.  Losses in cognition and physical abilities and stamina, but her will is strong and she is not done living.  I am grateful for that.

I am still spending every morning at the parents' house ~ well, actually, right now it's only six days a week because my dad stays awake on Sunday mornings to watch football.

I am extremely grateful to my employers for letting me work whatever hours I can for as long as this lasts.  And to my team of excellent coworkers for covering for me when I am not there.

I have a lot to be grateful for, in spite of this terrible disease.

I just have to remind myself of that from time to time.

Because there are many days when I just want to cry.  And, when I get a minute to myself, I do.  But, then I have to pick myself back up and carry on.  Because that's what we do, right?

There's a beautiful sunset right now, outside my office window.  Might as well be grateful for that too.

And for my friends, both RL and virtual who keep letting me know that I am in their thoughts.  Thank you.

6 comments:

weese said...

thanks for the update. been thinking of you.

greg said...

I was going to shoot you an email today - I'm glad you updated. You've been in my thoughts.

the only daughter said...

Ditto.

elf said...

Yes, thanks for the update, e. Always better to be a glass half full person.

8thdayplanner said...

Prayers continue . . .

Grumpy Granny said...

Yes, you've been in my thoughts. I remember when my father was dying and a friend called and I just cried. I wasn't bitter or angry or in denial. I was just sad. I knew what was going to happen and I knew it was part of life and I was sad. She was a good friend and let me cry. I was grateful for that. In spite of the impending loss, you do find so much to be grateful for. Sunsets are good.

Hugs!
GG